Security or Adventure? Take Your Pick.

Wow.

Just wow.

Pang to the chest. Actually, I take that back. Metaphorical dagger to my chest.

At the end of 2014, I got one of those 365 journals that has a question everyday and you answer them for 5 years.

Yesterday -- the question was this. "Are you seeking security or adventure?" And you know what? If I'm being honest with myself, the answer is both. And that bothers me. A lot. Okay, way too much.

I know I need to push myself. Yeah, yeah a lot of people will say "You're so young! You have plenty of time to figure it out!" Which is true -- but not the point.

The point is I am one of those people who must push themselves. If I let myself get too comfortable, I will slip into a routine that is not right for me. ((side note: this is not how everyone else is -- many people can relax and still be productive. and man oh man, do I admire that. thats just not me))

So needless to say, I have gotten way too comfortable. I've been hiding in the shadows, worried about what other people things. And let me tell you -- it is terrible. It is a terrible way to be. I even admitted today when I was on a walk with a dear friend that I have changed into a person that I don't like in that aspect of life. There are many other things that have been progressing in my life, parts of me that are getting better because I am working to make them better. However, lately I have been subconsciously getting comfortable.

So, with this in mind, I am heading forward and working to change this. I want to be back to seeking adventure and get back to that independent state of mind.

I am choosing adventure.

Adventure.

Ad-ven-ture!!

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Grace